Following the Light
1. Following the Light
He is here, my brother, and I struggle to my feet. Some part of my mind tells me that this cannot be, but I ignore it - hearing only those dear familiar imperious tones. As always, he is in front of me, calling me on: thus was it ever so through our childhood.
The world is grey around me and my feet find the unseen ground uncertainly. Times I wish to stop, to rest, to give up – but always that voice calls me on. It chides me, encourages me and comforts me. When I falter it steadies me, when I know not where I am going it guides me and when the darkness of shadowed wings sweep over my mind it warms as once his arms did after nightmare’s flight.
“Come on – you can do it,” my brother whispers - and I believe him. Just so did he say it to me, and just so did I believe him, when he taught me to swim, when he kissed me farewell before I left on my first campaign and when he dared me to climb the watchtower. That time I did fall and break a leg, though, I remember with a dry chuckle. The greyness around me seems to lighten as I laugh and I catch a glimpse of my brother far ahead. There is sun where he is and it catches on his armour and mighty shield, so he is limned in gold like a god of old, terrible in his beauty. Some long forgotten pain catches at my heart and I call, “Boromir!”
He turns, just for a moment, and I think I see him smile.
“Come, Little Brother Snail!”
With a lazy wave of his hand, he turns away and bounds up the mountain again, vanishing into the clouded grey so I am left once more to follow his voice. The way is steep and a dull weight seems to press me down. Once, twice I fall and stumble. Darkness drags at my thoughts. Only for Boromir would I have got up again. When I am weary beyond exhaustion, his voice offers caresses: baby names and endearments that he used when I was a small child and our mother was gone. In memory I feel his arms around me once more, and feel the hot tears he pressed against my neck even as he soothed me.
My brother’s voice is all I know now. Scarcely do I notice the shadowed greyness fading from around me; scarcely do I notice the levelling of the ground beneath my feet. I step unnoticing through the last clinging filaments of grey and stand panting, breathless with surprise and exhaustion, in a sunlit field. Boromir is there, and I can see him clearly at last. He stands smiling at me, both pride and affection in his grey eyes.
“Well done. I knew that you could do it.”
I smile back at him, albeit shakily, as I remember all the other times I have heard those words from him. It is warm here and I sink down on a nearby stone, feeling the heat soak up into my bones. The air is full of a fair fragrance: memories stir of my mother’s garden where roses and all lovely things bloomed. I look over at Boromir to share the memory and see for the first time that a light still shines from him, a clear light that wavers across him like water. For a moment, sadness marks him and then the light fades into a golden warmth. Bathed in it his face is as peaceful and strong as I have seen it on a thousand battle eves.
“Another will take you now, Faramir.”
He half-turns, nods as one soldier to another at change of duty, and is lost behind the light. It is another face that I see now beyond that radiance and another voice I hear.
“Walk no more in the shadows, but awake!”
*For Annmarwalk’s birthday
*What can I say – I think I’ve been reading too much Star Trek fanfiction ;-)
*The last line is taken directly from ‘The Return of the King’.
*All feedback and nitpicking welcome.
*Definitely AU to what Tolkien intended – slightly AU in hard cold facts.
*Yep, I know unnoticing isn’t a word.
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