Filks from the Red Book: 11. I Don't Know If I Love Him

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11. I Don't Know If I Love Him

Author’s note:
Sung by Gollum, from Silmarillion, the Musical. Based on “I Don’t Know How to Love Him,” from Jesus Christ Superstar, lyrics by Tim Rice, music by Andrew Lloyd Webber. The concept of Silmarillion: The Musical is borrowed from Cassie Claire’s Very Secret Diaries.


I don’t know if I love him
What to do, if I love him
I’ve been changed, yes by Precious
In these past few days
Sméagol has come back
And I seem like someone else

I don’t know how to lead him
I don’t know where he travels
Master is
A Hobbit too
But he’s raised so many
In very many ways
I want to please

Should I lead him true
Or deceive these two
Should I go to Her?
I am torn by doubt
I never thought I’d come back here
What’s it all about?

And I think it’s rather funny
I should be in this position
I’m the one
Who found Precious
In that deep pool
Am I a fool
Caring for Frodo
He binds me so

I never thought I’d come back here
What’s it all about?

If he said he’d free me
I’d be lost
I’d be lonely
I couldn’t cope
Just couldn’t cope
I’d follow him
I’d never leave
I wouldn’t want to go
He binds me so
I want It so
I love him so

This is a work of fan fiction, written because the author has an abiding love for the works of J R R Tolkien. The characters, settings, places, and languages used in this work are the property of the Tolkien Estate, Tolkien Enterprises, and possibly New Line Cinema, except for certain original characters who belong to the author of the said work. The author will not receive any money or other remuneration for presenting the work on this archive site. The work is the intellectual property of the author, is available solely for the enjoyment of Henneth Annûn Story Archive readers, and may not be copied or redistributed by any means without the explicit written consent of the author.

Story Information

Author: Celandine Brandybuck

Status: General

Completion: Ongoing Serial

Era: Multi-Age

Genre: Poetry

Rating: General

Last Updated: 05/02/04

Original Post: 03/08/03

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