J.R.R. Tolkien, The Silmarillion
This is my first attempt to write fan fiction, and my first attempt to write something different than university papers in English (not my mother tongue).
A few explanations might be in order – canonicity issues, of course…
Finduilas’ family is a problematic issue within Tolkien’s writings. In this story, Orodreth is Finarfin’s son, and his daughter is, for storytelling reasons, born in Middle-earth. I did not feel authoritative enough to say something about Finduilas’ mother, though, but for this story, it is enough to know that she is not in Middle-earth anymore, and very likely dead. I wanted Finduilas to be strongly connected to Middle-earth, and this is why she is born there in this story.
What I found most striking in Finduilas’ and Túrin’s story were two topics which run through the whole Narn î hin Húrin – the connection of both protagonists with the wells of Ivrin and water in general, and the confusion of mistaken love. Finduilas and Túrin both tend to love somebody because they mistake them for an entirely different person – Túrin is Gwindor’s doppelganger, Finduilas is a kind of mother/ sister substitute for Túrin. Niniel is somehow Finduilas’ doppelganger when she is seen by Túrin for the first time, and his love for her springs partly from his feelings of shame and regret he suffers for Finduilas’ death.
Finduilas, on the other side, has to come to terms with her ‘unnatural’ love for Túrin – unnatural not for the reason that he is a mortal man, but mainly because he is her second love, which is against the Eldarin belief that there can be only one soulmate and true-love during the lifetime of each Elf.
I tried to combine these fascinating topics and hope that I – somehow – succeeded. I came to like and to pity Finduilas over the writing of this story, because for me, she is not so different from you or me, thrown into some catastrophe that she closed her eyes upon.
The Philosopher at Large’s stories are a great inspiration for me, and a thank you and a big hug to Anni, my beta-reader, who truly earns her Quenya name, meaning ‘gift’!
Events take place in FA 496, shortly after the battle of Tumhalad (where Gwindor dies) and the sack of Nargothrond by the Dragon Glaurung (where Orodreth and the main part of Nargothrond’s people is slain). Apparently, the Orcs killed every man apart from Túrin who fell under Glaurung’s spell and saw the departure of Finduilas and the other women and children, being driven North to become thralls in Morgoth’s stronghold Angband. Deceived by Glaurung, Túrin does not try to rescue Finduilas, although he promised Gwindor to do that, but goes to Dor-lómin to look after his mother and sister who are long gone. After this revelation he slays the men who live in his family’s home and recognizes Glaurung’s purpose. He tries to follow Finduilas, but comes too late. And after that things get really bad – leading to Túrin’s last encounter with Glaurung and their deaths.
ARDA SAHTA: the marred Earth. In the beginning, Arda was good and whole, but under the influence of Morgoth’s malice it became flawed
ANFAUGLITH: a plain in the North of Middle-earth (formerly called Ard-Galen) that was burnt by Morgoth’s fires during the Dagor Bragollach
ANGBAND: Morgoth’s fortress
BELEG: Elf of Doriath, friend of Túrin, former owner of the famous sword Anglachel which passed to Turin after he unknowingly slew his friend
BRETHIL: great wood at the River Teiglin
CROSSINGS OF TEIGLIN: immensely important in the war against Morgoth, because after the loosing of the crossing Morgoth is able to send troops to Nargothrond without encountering greater resistance
DAGOR BRAGOLLACH: the fourth of the great battles of Beleriand against Morgoth, fought in FA 455. After this battle, Morgoth gains slowly the upper hand, because he is able to conquer strategically important parts of the north.
DÓR-LOMIN: domain of the mortal house of Hador in the North of Beleriand, in FA 473 (after the Battle of Unnumbered Tears e.g. Nirnaeth Arnoediad) overrun by Morgoth’s troops, Túrin’s father (Húrin, Lord of Dór-lomin) is captured, his mother Morwen sends Túrin to Doriath, trying to stay in the occupied country herself, because she is pregnant.
EÄ: the universe, sung into existence by the Valar
EDAIN: (sing. Adan) Men of the three mortal houses of the Elf-friends
EITHEL IVRIN: wells of the river Narog, guarded by the Vala Ulmo, patron of rivers etc. Beautiful, with healing powers (Túrin is healed there of his madness before he comes to Nargothrond)
ELDAR: the Elves
ELU THINGOL: King of Doriath, husband of the Maia Melian, father of Lúthien, foster-father of Túrin
FAELIVRIN: Finduilas’ nickname, given by Gwindor. Suggests the gleaming sun on the water of Eithel Ivrin
FËA: Quenya, ‘spirit’
GLAURUNG: dragon, Morgoth’s main weapon
GWINDOR: Finduilas’ fiancé, son of Guilin, brother of Gelmir, captured by Morgoth and made thrall in Angband for 14 years, before he could escape. He helped Túrin to gain entrance into Nargothrond, upon which Túrin became Orodreth’s counsellor and Finduilas fell in love with the mortal. Gwindor accepted this, being tortured beyond recognition in Angband. Against him, Túrin seemed to be elven-fair.
MANDOS: Judge and Keeper of the Houses of the Dead
MORGOTH: the fallen Vala, also named the Great Enemy, epithet Bauglir (constrainer), originally named Melkor
MORMEGIL: one of Túrin’s many pseudonyms (others mentioned in the story are ADANEDHEL - man-elf and THURIN - secret) meaning ‘black sword’, after the sword Anglachel
NARGOTHROND: hidden city, founded by Finrod, older brother of Orodreth, capital of the largest Elven kingdom in Beleriand
ORODRETH: second king of Nargothrond after Finrod’s death protecting Beren from Sauron, Finduilas’ father
TOL SIRION: Minas Tirith, the ‘Tower of Guard’ on the isle of the River Sirion, built by Finrod, held by Orodreth, till Sauron captured it and turned it to Tol Gaurhoth, the isle of werewolves, where Finrod died and Sauron was defeated by Lúthien who freed Beren, the last survivor.
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